2025年2月18日09:41:13 今天第一笔记录。
昨晚睡觉之前在hellotalk上聊了半个小时。
10点半开始泡脚，11点之前睡着了。睡着的时候师傅做梦了，
把娃哥，问道，手游，公司的领导，副总裁等梦到了一起。
睡醒的时候隐约有印象，但是那些都不重要，因为我知道那是梦境。
7点20睁开眼睛，天猫精灵的歌声开始响起，听起来很悦耳。
看了一眼窗外的阳光，不知道撒在我身上是什么感觉，
当下的我全身赤裸的躺在被窝里贪婪的享受着被窝里仅剩下的一丝丝温暖。
其实也没有温度了，可以起床了，但是没有起。
下一次，8点10分，8点30,8点54，一次次的问天猫精灵几点了。
脑袋里想着一些问题，时间到了，不得不起床了，9点20收拾完毕。
洗漱，腹肌轮，冥想，黑芝麻糊，香水，面霜，唇膏，一套流程下来，出门。
打开了房门，今天穿了薄的羽绒服，阳光洒在脸上，比被窝中舒服上太多。
在等电梯的时候带上耳机，脑袋告诉我，不需要再继续听昨天的博客了，
女孩要不要结婚生孩子的问题不是我现在需要考虑的，听起来有点不舒服。
今天就随便点了另外一个播客(不把天聊si)，关于年轻人的对话，
对于生活你还有想要改造点什么的心情吗？
这个话题我听了前边的两分钟，让我产生了共鸣。
因为早上的时候我躺在床上静思的时候，思考了一个问题，
就是我如果我每天做的都和今天不一样，是不是生活会变的更精彩？
如果我每天做的都一样， 是不是也叫做不是在浪费时间？
这些问题，都是问题，因为我没有去改变。
开始想的时候都是问题，开始做的时候都是答案。
生活中的小确幸很多，我们可以把控的东西也有很多，几乎是所有。
比如把现有的桌子挪挪位置，吃饭的时候有一个舒服的空间，
把现在的衣服拿出来晾晒一下，该缝缝补补，该洗洗刷刷。
把脸上的疲惫换成一些微笑，把一些工作的方式简单的变一变等等。
把我现在写作的方式也变一变，增加一些更多的细节。
把我每天的日常也变一变，下班依旧该干啥干啥，但是是去干点啥。
把我认识的人也都变一变，很多细节发现我并没有多么需要某些朋友。
这只是我在公司摘掉耳机之后对于我听了的10分钟的博客的一些思考。
可能今天中午我会继续听到其他的内容，但是当下，我站起来接杯水。
喝一口然后出去转一圈，这是我对于工作上的一些小改变。
今天早上还想聊到的一个比较沉重的话题。
人生有没有可能本身就是一个骗局。
那么多人工作，其实是他们最好的归宿。
如果都不工作，人们会在做什么？躺尸。
因为很多人，如果没有工作，那将不知道回去做什么。
就拿我自己举例子，我下班之后回家，不打游戏不看电视不看书，
我不知道我还能去做什么，我有的是时间。
但是现在我听了这段话我们会因为想要改造点什么而改变生活。
我不会去顾忌别人下班之后干什么，那么多人，活着就是一个社会。
我考虑自己如何在这个社会上更好的生存，
有些社会规则我需要遵守，但是有很多没有写在书上和法律上的东西太多了。
人生几十年，已经很长了，相对于动物的十几年，
人从生老到病死，中间健康的日子能够改变的东西也有很多。
12点31。中午吃完饭晒太阳。不和同事们在一起。
我自己来到我老根据地。
中午吃饭一起开会结束，同事在我身边聊天，
听到她说早上吃了热干面不太饿，所以就没有张嘴去叫他吃饭。
和其他同事一起下楼吃饭，吃饭是为了活着。
我吃多吃少，吃好吃坏，都是为了满足最基本的需求。
不饿就行，吃了大米先生18块钱的菜。有点多。
下次可以再少点。
对于爱情，我还是在思考。
与其每天啥都不做，不如做点什么。
因为不做就是不做，不是着急。
做了就是做了，也不是着急。
做了不成，也不会后悔，一定不会。
啥也不做，这样的煎熬，就是后悔。
感觉时间在浪费。
所以决定之前多思考一下，行动起来。
别的心里没啥事，天天再考虑着这个问题。
2025年2月18日13:46:08 睡醒了感觉有点发烧，其实也没有睡着。
中午上楼之前和娃哥20分钟的通话。
刚开始其实可能是我自己有点孤独了，但是娃哥的回复是可以冥想和记录。
都还好，随便聊几句，得不到太深的道理或者对于生活上的改变。
但是今天的聊天不后悔，因为我但是确实需要，虽然对于别人来说是噪音。
提到的噪音这个词，我很感兴趣，不是从书中听到的，而是从娃哥的口中。
然后给我们了一些对于生活中的案例，让这个词变的有灵性起来。
2025年2月18日14:43:58 开始上班开会了，从睡醒到现在的一个小时，
一个上海的同事请了一杯奶茶，在奶茶到之前喝了一杯999，
现在对于身体的感受，还是温温的有点想要发烧的感受。坚持到下班回家睡觉。
喝了之后我思考了一件事情，为什么是自己把这个奶茶喝了，而不是送人。
因为这是别人请我的，借花献佛虽然好，但是主动献花更好。明天买。
当身体不舒服的时候，身体和大脑就会分开，不受控制。
2025年2月18日15:17:40 上了一下卫生间回来，思考了一下
还是什么都不思考好，这样容易给自己找到自洽的方法。
2025年2月18日16:11:25 犯困犯困犯困。
中午没睡着带来的后遗症，下次怎么避免呢，12点50就躺下准备睡觉。
避免最后带来的胡思乱想影响进入深度睡眠状态。
2025年2月18日16:31:53 回想起中午聊天的时候说的一句话
我现在也没有付出什么行动，我的行动只是又多想了一会儿。
很深刻，天时地利人和，就算天不时，地不利，人不和，那又咋样，不活了？
我现在的精力和资源，只能让我有当下的眼界，
我接下来的精力和资源，让我有以后。但是以后都是不存在的。
只有过去和现在。
所以对于自己来说，想了做，做了再想就行。
相对于过去的想，我现在的想又不一样了。
2025年2月18日16:57:26 下午第二次间歇。喝水，放风。
2025年02月18日19:09:52 下班到家，煮饺子吃。
2025年02月18日19:52:30 吃完了晚饭，看完了一个视频。
问，我接下来做什么，如果每天都是固定不变的，那有什么意思。
关掉的房间里的灯，放上了音乐，闭上眼睛，先休息一会儿。
坐在了我冥想的凳子上，开始冥想。
2025年02月18日20:09:23 ，外婆打电话，视频一下。
2025年02月18日20:50:33 冥想结束。准备泡脚睡觉。
English version.
2025-02-18 09:41:13
This is the first entry of today.
Last night, I chatted on HelloTalk for half an hour before going to bed.
I started soaking my feet at 10:30, and fell asleep before 11. In my sleep, I dreamt about my brother, asking about mobile games, my company’s leadership, the vice president, and so on.
When I woke up, I had a vague impression, but none of that matters because I know it was just a dream.
At 7:20, I opened my eyes, and the song from Tmall Genie started playing. It sounded pleasant.
I glanced at the sunlight outside, not sure what it felt like on my skin, as I lay there naked in my bed, greedily enjoying the last bit of warmth in the blanket.
There was no warmth left, but I still didn’t want to get up.
The next time I checked the time, it was 8:10, 8:30, 8:54. I kept asking the Tmall Genie what time it was.
I was thinking about some things in my head. When the time came, I had no choice but to get up. By 9:20, I was ready.
I washed up, did my ab wheel, meditated, had black sesame paste, applied perfume, face cream, and lip balm. After my routine, I went out.
When I opened the door, I was wearing a thin down jacket. The sunlight on my face felt so much more comfortable than the warmth of my blanket.
While waiting for the elevator, I put on my headphones. My mind told me not to continue listening to yesterday’s podcast about whether or not girls should get married and have children; it wasn’t something I needed to think about right now, and it made me uncomfortable.
So, I casually picked another podcast (not talking about death), which was a conversation about young people.
For the next two minutes, the topic struck a chord with me.
In the morning, while lying in bed, I had been thinking about a question: If I did something different every day, would my life be more exciting?
And if I did the same thing every day, would that mean I was wasting time?
These are questions because I haven’t changed yet.
At the beginning, thinking about something is always a problem, but when I start doing something, it becomes the answer.
There are many little joys in life, and we have control over many things, almost everything.
For example, rearranging the furniture on the desk to create a more comfortable space for eating, taking out clothes to air, repairing or washing them.
Changing the fatigue on my face into a smile, simplifying the way I work, and so on.
I could also change the way I write, adding more details.
I could also change my daily routine. After work, I can still do what I normally do, but do it with more intention.
I could also change the people I know. I’ve realized that I don’t necessarily need certain friends.
These are just some thoughts I had after taking off my headphones at work, reflecting on the 10 minutes of podcast I listened to.
Maybe I’ll listen to something else at lunch, but right now, I stand up to grab a cup of water, drink it, and take a walk. This is a small change in my work routine.
2025-02-18 13:46:08
I woke up feeling a bit feverish, though I hadn’t really slept.
Before going upstairs for lunch, I had a 20-minute call with my brother.
At first, I might have felt a bit lonely, but his response was to meditate and take notes.
It was fine, just a casual conversation. There weren’t any deep insights or life changes from the chat.
But I don’t regret today’s conversation because I needed it, even if it seemed like noise to others.
The word “noise” intrigued me. I didn’t hear it from a book, but from my brother.
He shared some examples from life that made this word feel more meaningful.
2025-02-18 14:43:58
I started work and had a meeting. In the hour since waking up, a colleague in Shanghai bought me a cup of milk tea.
Before the milk tea arrived, I drank a 999 medicine drink.
My body still feels a bit feverish, but I’m going to hang in there until I get home and rest.
After drinking it, I thought about something: why did I drink the milk tea instead of giving it to someone else?
Because it was a gift from someone to me, it’s better to give flowers than to receive them. But tomorrow, I’ll buy one for myself.
When the body feels unwell, the body and mind separate, and things feel out of control.
2025-02-18 15:17:40
I went to the bathroom and came back. Thought about it for a while, but maybe it’s better not to think too much.
This way, I can find a way to make myself feel at peace.
2025-02-18 16:11:25
I’m so sleepy. The aftermath of not sleeping at noon is catching up. Next time, I’ll lie down by 12:50 to avoid the restless thoughts that prevent me from falling into deep sleep.
2025-02-18 16:31:53
I recalled something I said during the chat at lunch.
I haven’t taken any real action yet. My only action so far has been to think a little more.
It’s so profound: Timing, environment, and relationships—if none of these are in my favor, then what? Should I stop living?
Right now, I only have the energy and resources to see things as they are.
The energy and resources I have now will shape my future, but the future doesn’t exist yet.
It’s only the past and the present that matter.
So, for me, it’s about thinking, acting, and then thinking again.
My thoughts are different now than they were in the past.
2025-02-18 16:57:26
Afternoon break. Drinking water and taking a little walk.
2025-02-18 19:09:52
I got home after work and cooked dumplings for dinner.
2025-02-18 19:52:30
Finished dinner and watched a video.
I asked myself, what’s next? If every day is the same, what’s the point?
I turned off the lights in the room, played some music, and closed my eyes. I decided to rest for a bit.
I sat on my meditation stool and began to meditate.
2025-02-18 20:09:23
My grandma called. We had a video call.
2025-02-18 20:50:33
Meditation ended. I’m now getting ready to soak my feet and go to bed.
